So, while in the salon the other day getting my hair cut, I heard a dear voice in the chair behind me. Oh, how that voice made me so excited. It was one of comfort to me last year, and to hear it again did not bring bad memories but hope and energy.
It was a dear intern from Renfrew who guided me through a lot of healing. Never did she reprimand me for crying or for being aggravated with her. She showed me such patience and love and yet stretched and poked me to grow. She really was the arms of Jesus to me during that time.
She asked me how I was doing, and I could honestly say that things were going well. How thankful to my Lord for allowing things to go well for me. Without this intern's help last year, I'm not sure where I'd be. However, I do know that I would be exactly held and loved by God in the midst of it all.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
The Next Step...
As I sat in the kitchen the other day, I watched Olive come leaping from the next room. She dove head-first into my plants that sit beside my window. She obviously didn't consider that it might hurt to jump; she just flew!
I don't remember the last time I flew into a decision like that. Sometimes, I wish that I could just throw caution to the wind and know that I would be okay.
Do any of you have trouble just taking that next step? Whether it's a complete leap into the unknown or a mere toe-dip, it's a scary thing. I just sometimes want to stop at the thresh hold and stay where I am, comfortable and at-ease. I have a feeling that God wants more for us. What would trusting Him be if we knew what the outcome would look like?
I don't remember the last time I flew into a decision like that. Sometimes, I wish that I could just throw caution to the wind and know that I would be okay.
Do any of you have trouble just taking that next step? Whether it's a complete leap into the unknown or a mere toe-dip, it's a scary thing. I just sometimes want to stop at the thresh hold and stay where I am, comfortable and at-ease. I have a feeling that God wants more for us. What would trusting Him be if we knew what the outcome would look like?
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Mustard
I know that this blog is not very big and is not very interesting, I hope to plant a small mustard seed in the hearts of those that read it. Please remember to pass along a mustard seed of hope and truth in someone's life today. It only takes a small start for someone to be encouraged in their journey and struggles with ED and the Lord. How wonderful He is!
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Good
"The Lord's been good to me, and so I thank the Lord, for giving me the things I need, the sun and rain and the apple seed. Yes, he's been good to me" (Johnny Appleseed, Disney's Melody Time). This song reminds me that everything I need, the Lord gives to me. He knows what I need before I can even utter a word. While this isn't a long posting, it is what is on my heart. What a great and loving Father we have!
I John 3:1--"How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God. And that is what we are." Hold fast to the knowledge that we are children of a faithful God who will never leave or forsake us. Even when ED is strong and loud, know that the Lord is fighting harder and louder for you.
I John 3:1--"How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God. And that is what we are." Hold fast to the knowledge that we are children of a faithful God who will never leave or forsake us. Even when ED is strong and loud, know that the Lord is fighting harder and louder for you.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Sunday, Glorious Sunday
Today is going to be an incredibly busy and crazy day--church, walk for diabetes, helping cook chili, a Halloween party. It is sure to be great, but ED is driving me crazy. He's trying to get me to plan my life to a T. I need to eat a ton of meals on the run today, and he is whispering in my ear to restrict in areas that I can control.
Yesterday, I had breakfast with a friend, lunch while babysitting, and dinner with a sweet boy. Could I control any of what I ate? Yes, I could. Did I? Yes, I did. Did I skip a snack accidentally? Yes, I did that, too.
At the end of the night, I was starving. My body was telling me that it needed more food than I gave it, but I didn't listen; I didn't know whether or not it was telling the truth. Often, ED sounds so loud and so convincing that I listen to his voice above my body's. So, I woke up this morning even hungrier than when I went to bed!
So, today is going to be a difficult day to control what I eat and when I eat. I hope that I can listen to my body's desires today and not ED's!
"This is the day the Lord has made! Let us rejoice and be glad in it!" Psalm 118:24
Yesterday, I had breakfast with a friend, lunch while babysitting, and dinner with a sweet boy. Could I control any of what I ate? Yes, I could. Did I? Yes, I did. Did I skip a snack accidentally? Yes, I did that, too.
At the end of the night, I was starving. My body was telling me that it needed more food than I gave it, but I didn't listen; I didn't know whether or not it was telling the truth. Often, ED sounds so loud and so convincing that I listen to his voice above my body's. So, I woke up this morning even hungrier than when I went to bed!
So, today is going to be a difficult day to control what I eat and when I eat. I hope that I can listen to my body's desires today and not ED's!
"This is the day the Lord has made! Let us rejoice and be glad in it!" Psalm 118:24
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Doubting Thomas
Why do I doubt the goodness of God? Why do I hesitatingly marvel at His gifts and kindness? Why do I look at Him and say, "Thanks for being good, but are you sure you want to give that to me?" Why can't I just open my hands and receive?
I have been blessed with the gift of an amazing friendship recently and instead of resting in what it is, I doubt whether it's actually true. I continue to think that it's not, and that I'm reading more into the relationship than what it is. In this, too, I need to open my hands and receive.
"Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change." James 1:17
I have been blessed with the gift of an amazing friendship recently and instead of resting in what it is, I doubt whether it's actually true. I continue to think that it's not, and that I'm reading more into the relationship than what it is. In this, too, I need to open my hands and receive.
"Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change." James 1:17
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Breakfast
Does everyone have this much trouble deciding on what to eat for breakfast? I am always trying to figure out whether I want oatmeal, cereal, pb and j, or something else. Once I decide, I'm fine, but until then I can't figure out what to eat. Too many choices!!
I keep thinking of that verse in Nehemiah that reminds us that the Lord gives us the freedom to eat and drink freely of the things that He gives us. Food is meant for us to enjoy, but why are we given so many choices? The morning would be much easier with just two.
Olive is doing better this morning. I fed her some breakfast she wanted, and she seems much happier. If anyone has any bugs that I can release in my bedroom to give her some pleasure while I am gone, feel free to donate to a worthy cause.
I keep thinking of that verse in Nehemiah that reminds us that the Lord gives us the freedom to eat and drink freely of the things that He gives us. Food is meant for us to enjoy, but why are we given so many choices? The morning would be much easier with just two.
Olive is doing better this morning. I fed her some breakfast she wanted, and she seems much happier. If anyone has any bugs that I can release in my bedroom to give her some pleasure while I am gone, feel free to donate to a worthy cause.
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