So. I'm off to the fair tonight with a friend. Fair food is not the "safest" thing to eat when you're recovering from an eating disorder. In fact, it can throw you into quite a panic. Just thinking about all of the fried things available--fried Snickers, fried mushrooms, fried butter, corndogs, elephant ears, funnel cakes. This list could continue for a while; at the state fair it's almost a medal of honor to see what new thing you can come up with to fry. So, while I'm not sure what I'll be eating tonight, I do know that I want to be free to share things with my friends if they offer.
So what does Anna do? Old Anna would manipulate the eating plan she's still on to try to figure out how she can eat as little fat throughout the day in preparation for the evening to come. Yes, that might work, but that also might set her up to be extremely hungry at night and gorge on food, and we all know the cycle that could start her on.
Real Anna would rather eat normally throughout the day and still eat what she would like at the fair. While she doesn't usually let herself do this, it might work tonight. It helps to have friends who like to see people enjoy food.
Plan for the day--Eat normally. See what obstacles lie at the fair. Eat what seems desirable at the time. Relish each bite. Enjoy the amazing company, sights, sounds, and smells. Please help me with this, Lord!
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